Desire

This "systematic" Christian life feels so disconnected.
I desire TRUE connection with my Father.
I desire to feel peace without following "formulas."
I desire relationships from the heart, a TRUE experience.
Authentic, REAL, honest, and life-giving LOVE!
THIS IS POSSIBLE!
But, sometimes, I do not know how to BE this.
Lord, help me and teach my formulaic soul to yield to the
Unforced Rhythms of Grace- YOUR ABILITY!

I am tired of being confused,
Tired of feeling alone,
and tired of being self-centered.
Show me how to BE your daughter and break the bondage of
Falling into the DO mentality.

I know your will is for my life to be an experience of
PEACE
LOVING RELATIONSHIPS, and
SERVANTHOOD for your children.
Teach me YOUR ways Oh Lord,
For man is not my strength and knowledge.
YOU ARE!
I desire a PEACE and LOVE for mankind,
That only comes from You.

Unplugged Update

I have been VERY intentional to my commitment to unplug.  I've had far less screen time and much more face time.  For a few weeks, I removed Facebook from my phone.  I knew it would be tempting to get caught in the trap of looking for a bit and staying on too long.  I purposefully became present in life.  It's been a constant goal, but I am a bit more focused on living "BEING" here completely.
I've struggled in some areas, and am realizing sometimes I look at the screens of life to avoid some painful realities God is prompting my heart to see.  But, I'm okay with that.  I know my Father is big enough to help me overcome.

It's really cool how that oBEdience thing works.....following those promptings even when they seem challenging, and seeing a nice fruitful harvest.  And truth is, it usually is not as hard as the enemy tries to make us believe.  The anticipation of being obedient is actually the hardest part, and that's our flesh screaming to hold on to something we'd be better off without.  Another truth is I already have what it takes to succeed, I just have to BElieve it.
I'm not sure of a lot, but I am sure that God has our best interests at heart, always. 

BE courageous. BE strong.

Something really unfamiliar, but exciting, is happening.  

The spirit of fear and timidity is dissipating within me.  

2 Timothy 1:7

For God has not given us a spirit of fear and timidity, but of power, love, and self-discipline.

The Lord called me down a road of seeking Him only.  To choose to tune out all other voices.  To trust that I can come to His throne.  

                                                       Hebrews 4:16

So let us come boldly to the throne of our gracious God. There we will receive his mercy, and we will find grace to help us when we need it most.

It has not felt comfortable.  It has felt unfamiliar.  I have had bad days! I have felt panicked! But I have always felt Him right there, soothing my insecurities.

Deuteronomy 31:6

So be strong and courageous! Do not be afraid and do not panic before them. For the L ord your God will personally go ahead of you. He will neither fail you nor abandon you."

I trust the Lord's voice above man.  No one else can tell me "when I am ready" to follow the Lord's voice.  I am aware of the obstacles the enemy will throw in my path.  Most of the time it's through something posing as the Lord's wisdom.  But I can BE courageous.  I can BE strong.  I can stand firm.  

1 Corinthians 16:13

Be on guard. Stand firm in the faith. Be courageous. Be strong.