Noah's heart surgery went great, no complications whatsoever! What a relief! Now his heart is working like a normal one. The third defect actually closed on it's own too, so only one had to be closed off! Praise God! We had 2 amazing miracles with the defects repairing themselves and one miracle of surgical repair. It took me a while to see it in that way, but God works in many ways. We probably have a few more surgeries coming up (eyes and ears) so it's good that I've received that revelation!
I'm really learning how to live in the moment through all of this. Stressing out over what might come or what has already happened isn't working for me, so I'm trying to learn to be present and deal with today. It's really hard sometimes, I must admit. I think that is part of the wisdom of growing older though, now that I'm at the ripe old age of 30! Each medical decision has to be dealt with as it comes or else I get really overwhelmed. Plus it's hard to remember to trust in God's plan for today if I'm continually thinking about yesterday or tomorrow.
I'm now 7 months pregnant and baby Elijah will be here very soon!! After having the miscarriage last February, I've also dealt with several tough emotions during this pregnancy. It changes everything once you've lost a child. I still have a lot of sadness, but I just hold on to that vision of eternity spent with my baby and it helps. I am not really that nervous about the baby having birth defects since everything has looked great so far. Of course I would never choose that to happen again, but I know that I'm strong enough to handle more than I ever thought possible, so if there are challenges, I know I can make it.
Noah has taught me so much that I would've never known had we not been through these challenges the past two years, and that's God's grace in perfect form. He makes a way when there seems to be none, and gives us hope when we feel hopeless. Although there are days when I don't feel even close to thankful enough, in my heart, I know where my help comes from, and I am so happy to have that peace. "I lift my eyes up to the hills, where does my help come from? My help comes from the Lord, the maker of Heaven and Earth."
Thank you Lord for keeping Noah safe during surgery and healing his heart. We love you and give you eternal praise for the goodness you willingly give us every second of every day. Help me to remember to trust in You during those challenging days because I know You have Noah in the palm of your hand. First and foremost, he is Your son.
